Sunday, December 11, 2016

Dugaan Allah di pagi Minggu

Man bangun kan aku at 4:50am, mengadu sakit perut. Dia cakap sakit sangat dan mintak bawak gi hospital. Aku terperanjat bab dia sakit bahu sejak balek dari kerja last Friday. Tapi kenapa pagi ni tiba2 sakit perut pulak. Aku terus bangunkan Faris & we drove him to NUH. After he dropped us at the A&E, I asked him to go back. A&E was empty, Man is the only patient. Ya Allah... permudahkan lah segala masaalah suami ku Ya Allah.

Around 7:45am, one lady doctor came out and told me that they did an extray & found out that Man fractured his right shoulder. And he still has the stomach pain. So, doctor going to check further at his stomach. She asked me to go back first bcoz it will take a while for him to get a ward. So, I went back home by taxi.

Sampai rumah jer, terus kedapur goreng beehun tauchu. Pasal nanti satu hari kat ward mesti malas nak turun kantin cari makan.

Waktu tengah nak siap2, A&E called to inform that Man is in ward 27. And waktu tengah siap, ward 27 called to inform the same thing. Aku bergegas suruh Faris & Sarah siap cepat. And kemudian Man pulak called, he told me the devastated news that doctor told him he has colon cancer. Ya Allah... aku menangis bilang budak2 & terus gi hospital.

Sampai di hospital carpark, Man called again, asking why we haven't reach yet. Upon reaching the ward, we rushed to his room. A nurse who was attending to him, cornered us and informed about the devastated news. Sarah & I cried....Faris was very calm. And the nurse called the doctor to inform that the family has arrived. We went back to his room, he's lying on the bed looking confused and it  made my heart broke. While waiting for the doctor, Abg Ali, Kak Idah & Yanti came. Apparently, Abg Ali called Man to say that he want to drop by our house to see Man bcoz Kak Idah told him about Man's shoulder. So, Man told Abg Ali on the phone that he's in hospital & doctor said he has cancer. So, they rushed to the hospital & arrived shortly after we arrived. Awhile later, a lady doctor came and explained everything about his condition.  A&E doctors did a CT scan on his lower abdomen and found that his colon has burst. The fecal in the colon has leaked out. They found a tumor in the sigmoid colon & mentioned that the tumor is hard. Apparently, the tumor is cancer and it has spread to his liver as well. Kak Idah asked the doctor, what stage is Man now & the doctor said 'its stage 4'. Ya Allah!!!!! Ya Allah!!!!! Ya Allah!!!!.. 😒😒😒 Doctors has to perform an emergency operation to contain the waste and also to remove section of the affected colon. All these has to be done fast, that's the reason they want us to come quickly.

Tak pernah sekali, aku terfikir yang suami ku akan mengidap cancer. Tak pernah terfikir langsung! Kuasa Allah sangat luas & tiada siapa yang boleh halang. Aku berdoa ya Allah, kau selamat kan lah suami ku.

Fahmi & Ain was attending Helena's wedding. Fahmi who was working night shift yesterday, rushed to the hospital after Faris informed him the news. Rafiah also rushed to the hospital after Abg Ali informed her. And Razni who worked morning shift, rushed to the hospital and managed to see Man just before Man being pushed to the operating theatre.

The operation has been scheduled at 3pm. So, at 2:30 the porter came to push him to the operating theatre. All of us walked together, followed the porter from behind. I was dizzy...my mind entah fikir segala benda. Ya Allah....

I called Mis to inform her. First, I told her that I want to 'kirim' duit sumbangan majlis kahwin Kak Mini today. And then, I said 'we cannot attend bcoz Aob is not well. He's now in NUH and going for emergency operation soon'. This offcourse shocked her.

Waiting....waiting....waiting...
everybody getting very restless.....


Sarah, Fahmi, Ain, Faris
Rafiah, Razni, Irfan
Abg Ali, Kak Idah, Yanti, Iman, Didi
Kak Rumnah, JayJay, Lynn, Ib, three kids
Mis, Zul
Nana
Jimmy, Zulfa

Finally, at 10pm, they pushed Man back to his HDU room. He's conscious but looked very dizzy. One of the lady surgeon came and explained to us about the operation. They have removed the diseased colon. And made an opening through the skin on his abdomen and connects the bowel to that opening. It is called a stoma and his stool passes out of the body through the opening. So, a disposable bag (stoma bag) is attached over the opening to collect his stool.

All of us take turns to see him at his bed. Ya Allah...engkau lah maha pelindung, lindungi lah suami ku ya Allah.

We left the hospital at 12+ midnite.









Saturday, November 19, 2016

Hi-tea at Rohaya's crib

Hari ni gi rumah Rohaya Robae for hi-tea. Gosh, bermacam macam jenis kuih-muih, pastry & kek yang disediakan.


Tadi dalam kul 12:45 Nosha came to fetch me. Kita gi jemputan majlis kahwin anak Kak Gayah di Bukit Panjang. Lepas tu, kita kerumah Rohaya. 

Rohaya akan berangkat ke umrah on 3-Dec, insyaAllah. Semoga beliau diberi kesihatan agar dapat mengerjakan ibadah umrah dengan sempurna.

Pagi tadi, kita ke Johor seperti biasa. Sarapan roti canai di Gelang Patah kemudian ke Mydin untuk membeli belah. Sampai rumah kul 11:30. Kelam kabut siap2 untuk ke dua majlis bersama Nosha nanti.

Tuesday, September 13, 2016

Bertakbir & Bertahmid

Hari ni ada majlis bertakbir & bertahmid dengan kumpulan Pencinta Alquran dirumah Ram di Yishun. Ini pertama kali aku bertakbir bersama mereka. As a matter of fact, ini pertama kali aku bertakbir fully. Alhamdulillah....




Pagi nya aku sempat mendobi, lepas tu menjahit. Jubah embroidery putih yang upah di Semarang, aku labuhkan sikit. So, nanti boleh pakai untuk bertakbir.  And also continue making my red Carry-All tote. Yeay all done except for the eyelets. Im quite happy with the result. I think, I will use the pattern for other similar tote bag. 

Tuesday, August 23, 2016

Mee siam di rumah Mak Munah

Lepas ngaji & solat zuhur tadi, kitorang gi rumah Mak Munah. Last week at Yati's place, Sis Jumidah already informed us that Mak Munah is inviting us to her house after our ngaji. Alhamdulillah...she looked very happy upon seeing us. And we were served with a very delicious mee siam kuah. Ya Allah...sedap betul air tangan Mak Munah ni.

Lepas makan and borak-borak, kita pon gerak. Hantar Kak Ima & sis Jumidah balek. Lepas tu turunkan Sabah at Bukit Batok. From there Yati ajak gi Screen Box at Vega building to collect kuali for Ita. At the same building ada kedai jual barang2 dapur, so kita singgah kejap. WoW!! Besar betul kedai ni & macam2 ada. I bought tong sampah yang dah lama overdue.

Lepas shopping2 kita dropped by kat Aiman cafe to tapao food back.

Monday, August 8, 2016

Sedih ...πŸ˜ͺπŸ˜ͺπŸ˜ͺ

7:15pm
Entah kenapa hati ni sedih. 
Sedih sekali. 

Apa kurang nya diri ku kalau di bandingkan dengan ibu2 lain. Rupa ku buruk ker? Perangai ku buruk ker? Tapi kenapa tak pernah sekali pon ajak aku pergi jalan2 di mall waktu dia tak bekerja. Dia selalu cakap emak nya Amai, perangai & mulut nya sangat tak elok. And yet, Amai selalu keluar window shopping & makan2 together dgn emak nya. Dan selalu dia join them gi makan2. Tapi kenapa tak pernah pulak ajak aku gi makan2 dgn Amai & Fie. 

Ini confirm, aku sangat 'memalukan' di mata nya.

8:15 pm
A CONFIRMATION
Sang suami bilang ini semua salah aku.
Aku : So, its all my fault?
He : Ya lah...
Aku : Ok, cuma nak confirm  jer

Monday, May 2, 2016

54th in 10 days

Tak tau, kenapa the whole afternoon and until now (7:31pm) aku macam rasa sedih jer. Very emotional...😒😒😒

Asyik fikirkan anak2 jer.... Diorang tu ada rasa kesian or sayang kat aku tak? Kalau kesian, kenapa tak pernah nak ambik hati aku, tolong mop rumah ker, tolong masak ker, tolong laundry ker... Haiz...I wonder if they know I'm tired. Dear children, I will be 54 years old in 10 days. I'm not as active as before. Honestly, I get tired very easily now.... Please... please understand me, my children.

2nd 4.7km walk with family

Hari ni Faris tak ikut gi walk. 

About 8:40 kita gi breakfast kat McDonald dulu. Lepas tu, hantar Ain gi kerja. Then, baru proceed to Rifle Range Road. Dah penat2 berjalan, bila sampai the bridge, queue panjang gila. Fed-up seh! So, kita sepakat to patah balek. Reached home around 1:15. Lepas mandi, solat zuhur.


Thursday, March 24, 2016

Happy GilerπŸ˜€πŸ˜€

Tadi aku pergi for my 2nd dietician appointment at CCK polyclinic.

Sampai jer kat clinic, aku terus gi timbang dulu. Yeay!!!! It reads 65.6kg. Aku happy sangat2. It was 67.8kg when I first went there on 18-Feb. Within 2 months 5 days, I lost 2.2kg. Its a huge accomplishment for me. 

The dietician was happy too when I showed her my weight slip. And she complimented on my diets when she reviewed my food diary.

Alhamdulillah. Terima kasih Ya Allah kerana menyedarkan ku tentang penting nya gaya hidup sihat. Mudah2an istiqomah.


Wednesday, March 23, 2016

All time record - Yeay!!!

Malam ni aku ada teman berjalan. Irene from group WNM decided to walk with me. Yeay!!!! Im gonna make full use of her company. Usually when I do my walking alone to Seng Shiong, I will pass by Japanese Garden Road, and always wish to walk there. But I know I will never dare to walk there alone, the road is too quiet. But tonight, I made a date with Irene. I told her to meet at the start of the road. Gosh, its so nice to walk with someone. The quiet road seems extremely ok. We walked and talked. Im glad that she's quite talkative & that made the walk an enjoyable one. 

Somehow, tonight the sky is a bit bright & orangy. Agak nya bcoz of gerhana bulan kot. Unfortunately, my iphone camera did not do justice to the picture. This was captured from near Chinese Garden train station.

We finally end our walk at 10:15. I went home straight & Irene said that she's taking a bus back as she is too tired to walk home. Poor Irene...

Yeay!!! I made a new record...

Friday, March 18, 2016

Happy 32nd anniversary to me...😞

17-March 1984
Hari pernikahan ku bersama sang suami.

17-March 2016
32 tahun kemudian....
Semalam, aku mula menjahit very early around 9am. So engrossed with my sewing that I have forgotten the most important date. Gosh! around 3+ baru teringat!!! first time I lupa kot. Sign of old age..

And as usual, none of the family members remember. I dont think the children know about the date. Or perhaps they know, but 'So What!' And for the sang suami, he has long forgotten this date. Haiz....

Tadi 12 noon. Baru ternampak posting Kak Zaiton Kadir at her FB. Today is her 56th birthday & as usual her wall is flooded with doas & wishes from friends & families. I saw her children sent touching wishes & doas to her. They are her FB contacts. How blessed ...

In her latest status, someone knocking her door to surprise her with a bouquet of beautiful roses. I guess its from her daughter. You are so blessed Kak Eton.  May Allah shower you with rahmat & iman.

Monday, March 7, 2016

Alhamdulillah...today's regime

Alhamdulillah, syukur Ya Allah....

Sekarang 8:45 am tengah duduk depan kipas keringkan rambut dan berdikir...

Aku dah selesai buat ni semua :
- mengaji Pencinta Alqur'an
- cuci kain 
- kemas tangki
- masak air jarang
- sarapan, hot milo with wholemeal bread & butter
- exercise, PT & stairs climbing
- jemur kain
- mandi & cuci rambut

Alhamdulillah.....

Kalau dulu sebelum WNM, dah pukul 9am masih terbaring kat atas katil bermalas-malasan. Haiz

Sunday, March 6, 2016

Hati ku iri....

Tadi lepas masak lunch, buka jer Facebook terus ternampak posting Kak Intan. Hati ini menjadi sayu dah terharu and at the same time iri juga. Betapa aku impikan dan harapkan untuk membaca quran bersama sama suami ku. Ya Allah, kau buka lah hati suami ku untuk mempelajari membaca alquran. Ya Allah... makbulkan lah doa ku....

Friday, February 26, 2016

Qallun...

Dihari Jumaat yang mulia ini, aku mula kan langkah ku menuju ke mesjid Asyakirin dipagi hari, dengan satu harapan. Ya, satu harapan untuk mempelajari bacaan alquran dari ustadz Samad. 

Hari ini aku mula membaca riwayat Qallun. InsyaAllah, akan ku cekalkan hati untuk menimba ilmu dari ustadz garang ni. Ya, beliau garang. Mudah2an istiqomah...

Thursday, February 25, 2016

Haiz...:( :(

I'm useless!!!!!

4:04 am