Jaga Ayra bermula

Hari ni Monday, 8-Feb, Ana dah mula babysit Ayra Bang. Smlm Ana & Sarah dah berangkat ke rumah Faris. Kitorang tidur sini. Tapi tadi pagi Sarah dah balek bcoz she's working today. 

Liana keluar kerja kul 6:45am. And Faris hari ni first day at his new office. Masuk kul 10:30. Kul 9:00 dia dah keluar.

Tadi pagi kebetulan, Nahar nak hantar paste, so, Ana suruh hantar kat rumah Faris jer. He dropped by at 9:15 gitu. Belikkan dua bungkus nasa jengganan. Syukur alhamdulillah. Sedap sangat. Ana mkn sikit at 10:30 & kul 3+ makan lagi.

Fahmi anak beranak datang sini jugak Bang. Diorang dah amik Humaira, terus datang sini. Kecoh betul Bang cucu2 kita semua, bising jerit2. Kalau Abang ada, mesti Abang suka. Bila dah balek semua, rumah terus sunyi sepi.

Sekarang ni kul 9:30pm. Ana tengah menjahit quilting kat lantai dapur Faris. Angin kencang ni...

13-Sept 2018

On Thursday, 13th Sep 2018, at 5:15am, just before Subuh, my beloved husband took his final journey from this world to his Creator, after battling cancer for 1 year 9 months. It was not an easy battle. It has given me immense pride that he had fought it all the way with great strength and grace, but Allah had different plans for him. Indeed, he was a warrior.

I am grateful to Allah for planning everything so perfectly for us. We managed to perform our Hajj in August 2018, after waiting 7 years for our turn. His determination to perform the Hajj was overwhelming, even though he was admitted to the hospital just days before our trip and was fortunate enough to be discharged on the eve of our departure. I was blessed to be able to go on that holy trip with him. That 19-day trip was beyond challenging for him, especially with his deteriorating health. It was an immensely heavy emotional rollercoaster we were on, having shed many tears. Allahu Akbar! 😢😢

Alhamdulillah, he managed to perform all the Hajj rukuns himself. Syukur ya Allah. After the blessed 19 days there, we arrived SG safely on Thursday, 31st August. His face glowed with happiness and contentment the second he saw his children and grandchildren welcoming him warmly at the airport. However, he was feeling sickly after that and his condition was going downhill with every passing day. We took him to the hospital on Monday, 3rd Sep, when he complained of breathlessness. 

He spent 10 weak and sedated days in the hospital and had eventually left us in the morning of Thursday, 13th Sep. Hours before he left, we kept saying the syahadah in his ears and recited surahs to him, just like we did every day the past couple of days. Anak2 and I were holding him as his soul raised from his body. Allah made me fulfill my promise to him that I would never leave him no matter what came through our life. We have stood by him all this while and talked to him about everything. It was a special moment for the five of us, there was so much peace in that room. Inna lillahi wainna ilaihi rojiun...

That day, I did not only lose my husband, I lost my best friend and partner in everything. Our whole life was around each other. We were always together. He gave me the most beautiful 34 years & three amazing children. I could not have asked for a husband better than him. He loved me & accepted me with all my flaws. Thank you Allah for lending him to me.

May Allah rest your soul, almarhum Hj Osman Bin Hj Mansor in eternal peace and place you in the highest level of Jannah. Aamiin...

The search of Humaira's pyjama

Tadi pagi lepas subuh & mengaji, mata ku kelat sangat. Nak baca tahlil pon macam tak boleh bukak mata ni. Ini semua gara2 menjahit patchwork semalam sampai kul 2pagi.

Dengan cuaca yang sejuk, ku tarik selimut lagi & sambung tidur. Sarah came into the room at 9:20am to salam goodbye. After she left, I masih kat atas katil, golek2. Eventually at 10am baru bangun and siap2. Had a quick breakfast of hot milo & 3pcs biskut lemak. Lepas tu called Grab & gi Boon Lay shopping center. Dah lama tak gi sini, banyak kedai yang dah bertukar owner & bertukar bisness. First stop, I went to DIY shop & bought some cable-ties & some nails. Second stop, belikan Humaira pyjama, tiga pasang. After that went to NTUC, bought kiwi, banana, sweet potato, small long bean & mushrooms. Before going back, singgah Swee Heng bought variety of breads. Alhamdulillah... mission accomplished. Pyjama is the main reason of this trip. Balek naik taxi because banyak sangat barang yang dibeli.

Humaira with her new pyjama, sitting on a new stool bought by Cik Sarah semalam at Daiso.

The variety of breads bought from Swee Heng.... Sedap nya roti gula tu!


Today I cooked kari ikan tenggiri, paru goreng (no photo) & the small long beans with mushroom bought from Boon Lay NTUC just now.

 

Sarah's 24th .... tanpa bapak nya :(

Hari ni puteri ku, Maisarah dah pon 24th tahun umur nya. Pagi tadi dia masuk ke bilik ku & kami (Humaira & I) sang her a birthday song. I made myself happy, pretending actually bcoz deep in my heart, I was very sad. Sad because Man not with us now.

Kitorang takder plan nak gi dinner outside because Fahmi hari ni kerja. So, we plan to have a small kind of celebration at home jer. I cooked ayam masak lemak cili padi & sambal sotong tiga rasa, Sarah's favourite.

And tadi petang, Nosha datang untuk pass me cups for her pincushions which she asked me to do for her hajj friends. So, I asked her to buy me a small birthday cake for Sarah sekali. Jadi, malam ni kita ada birthday cake arh. Alhamdulillah...

Small little birthday cake from Nosha & super delicious pies bought by Zul.

 The next day, Wednesday 10th, when semua orang available, kita gi dinner at Steak Me at Jalan Kayu. Fahmi paid for the bill which is $270. Mahal jugak ekh. Terima kasih Dek, semoga Allah perluaskan lagi pintu rezeki Adek. Tapi surprisingly, I like my dish. Alhamdulillah...

This is Ain's lamb rack...

This is Faris nya, Rib Eye... 

And this is mine, striploin, a very well done. I like it. 

😢

Hati ku sebak dari small celebration semalam sampai lah ke hari di restaurant steak ni. Alangkah bagus nya kalau Man masih ada, dia mesti suka makanan kat sini.😢😢

My Humaira, si Gembeng

Love to menyakat my cucu....

Tadi I was so tired trying to make her sleep. Degil betul dia, dah satu jam dodoikan dia tapi tak tidur2. Geram sangat, so I scolded her with high pitch tone. Bibir dia terus menggigil & menjebik. Ya Allah....bergenang air mata dia. Cute betul, tapi kesian pulak. Belum empat bulan dah kener marah.

Humaira bertahnik & bercukur

Hari ni cucu ku, Humaira cukur rambut & bertahnik di mesjid Maarof. Syukur alhamdulillah...

Pagi2 kita dah rewang sorang2 untuk bawak ke mesjid nanti. Buat pulut kunyit with rendang & telur rebus.

Gambar kenangan bersama Ustaz Mostakim & besan ku, Juriah. Semoga Humaira menjadi anak yang soleha bila besar nanti. Aamiin...

 

1st appointment with Oncologist

Hari ni is Man's first appointment with the oncologist. Faris is not working & Sarah is taking half day leave.

And hari ni kita tak masak lunch bcoz Man nak makan chicken rice at NUH. Lepas zuhur, kita gerak with Faris is driving us there. Parked our car at level 5 and straight to the canteen. Baru perasan that the chicken rice stall do not have Halal certificate. I asked the lady mending the stall about the halal status, she said & pointing at one notice on the counter 'kita belum dapat sjil lagi tapi gerai kita memang halal. Kita under ustadz Azmi & you boleh call dia if you want to check'. Why should I call? Ish!!! So, end up I orderd nasi ayam penyet for Man &  Faris.

Lepas makan around 2:30 we were up at 10th floor Cancer Centre. Sarah already there when we arrived. Clinic were crowded. I did the registration.

And not long after, they called for Man and he had his weight, height & blood pressure checked by a nurse at Corridor B. After that, we were told to wait outside for our number to be called again. This time is to see the oncologist at Corridor C.

Waiting....waiting...

Finally, at 4pm our number 5043 is called. Dr Chee is the oncologist. She's a very nice doctor, talked very well, slow and with full confidence.


Once sessi berbual dgn Dr Chee selesai, kita gi jalan2 kat Kent Ridge mall. Sarah seboleh-boleh suruh Man gunting rambut, since Faris pon nak gunting rambut bcoz besok nak gi reservist. And this is the fist time, Man gi gunting rambut kat salon & cost $12.